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August 14 A Fairy Tale Gone WrongI never saw it coming... One day, I was happy... One day, I was not... These emotions were playing in my mind for the past few months... Before I met him, I was a normal girl... And looking around for the best boyfriend... I even had the chance to crush around... After I met him, I was quite happy... I also had different emotions playing around in my head... Wondering whether is he 'the one'... What he did now, was inacceptable... I was stupid, I unblocked him when I saw him online... Thought of Giving him another chance... Unfortunately, he ignored me... Again... And he went offline... But still, I'm having a hard time blocking him again... I think I should... A part of me thinks so, Another part of me doesn't... He changed his display message... I wonder whether he was aiming it at me... Or it was just another random thought of his... Does he feel the same as me? Heartbroken and Dissapointed... because I've also been ignoring him... But it's his fault too, He should text me, Or at least give me a call... Despite the reasons he gave me... i still can't accept it... Doesn't he know... By doing this, it hurts both parties... or as far as I know... It hurts only one... After thinking, I think I will block him again... it seems like the right thing to do... But who knows, what will happen to me when he onlines again... Will I be stupid and give him another chance? Or should I ignore him... Love is complicated... I'm not in Love... No... I'm sure of it... He is now 85% crush and 15% love... It's hard for me to get it to this level... But I tried and at least succeeded... Hoping it will eventually fade and go away... One of my crushes actually came to like me... This is obviously my chance and I should be happy... But because of him, I'm not willing to try and give the other guy a chance... Because, there may be a small, puny little chance... Maybe even a small star, or even a spark... That will ignite again when I look at his profile... It's the other 15% of my love... That's pulling me away from the other opportunities i'm having... The other 15%, that I hope will fade away... According to time... Time, will be my medicine for my broken heart... Time, will be helping me piece back my heart... Time, could also help me get a life... July 25 My Confused FeelingsThis, is the album I want you guys to listen.. After finding out that どうして君を好きになってしまったんだろう? (One of the songs in the album..) which means "Why Have i Fallen In Love With you?" I became very very emo.. The song means something to me.. And I mean literally MEANS something to me.. I've also found out that this is the song I've been looking for (since I've known him) to describe what I feel..(The songs I've downloaded before, whose lyrics were meant for confused people like me, such as 7 things by Miley Cyrus can't even compare to this..) The song I NEEDED desperately before it even became famous, even before it was sent by SookMian.. You see, I'm really confused.. And you DO NOT like me when I'm confused.. I DO NOT like someone so easily, and the few dates I've been invited to so far, can't even compare to what the things he says... I'm the kind of girl who likes a guy for a maximum of 2 days and it'll be somewhat like this.. "OMG, HE's HOt!!!" Then, a few days later, another guy comes in.. And I start to like that guy.. And FYI, this isn't love, it's called a crush.. And I've been doing that since I was small.. Hence the single and available girl you see before you right now.. And again let me state, I DO NOT FALL IN LOVE EASILY.. But this guy is different.. I can't find out why.. I do not like him, yet I like him.. I do not miss him, but I want him to call me, or even text me.. (I'm telling you, i'm in DEEP emo shit...) He is not like the crushes I've had so far and I think that makes him different... But I keep telling myself, "DENISE LEE SUE LIN, DO NOT LET YOURSELF BE FOOLED!!" or "I WILL NOT KENA TIPU!!" And some other stuff along the lines like that, but.... *sigh* Mala even told me, Denise, I think you kena tipu already... Sunantha also told me, Denise, awak sudah kena tipu.. Ok, FINE... I kena tipu, ....a little bit..... Hey, I have common sense okay... Because of this, my heart is in and out of the little borderline.. And seriously, it hurts... I have to control myself, and yet not control myself at the same time... I need to be safe... If he does not like me, at least I have a little preparation ready and I would not get hurt that much.. Also, I would not be the first one to open my mouth.. Ken says it'll be much better if the guys go first.. And not forgetting what happened in standard 6.. (Hey, although it's centuries away, it broke my heart okay...) And because of that incident my crush-disease started... Jumping from one guy to another.. It was wrong yes, but it will be way safer... And besides, a little flirting couldn't hurt anyone... (^_^) I also dislike guys who like me for what I look like... Not who I am... Bloody Hell you, didn't find me when I look horrible lar... Now only start to bullshit around me, PUH-LEEZ!! This is fake and I can see it... And I also HATE people I DON'T KNOW who keeps on pushing me for my email add and my phone number and also randomly asking me out.. I mean, if I want to go out with you I will say so, other than that... Geez...WTF!!! HELLO, FRIENDSTER GUY!!! Although you study in UTAR, please fuck off.. And my wble messages are getting crowded... Swt these kind of people lar. Anyway, I feeling really really emo right now.. And summore my assignments berlambak... (I finished my Sociology Assignment in 2 days, 10-15 pages and i slept at 4.30am in the morning... Kudos to me..) I CANNOT, I repeat, CANNOT have these things come and bother me right now.. *sighs* Guys, next time if you like a girl.. PLEASE TELL THEM!!! It's very very horrible you know, going around and ai-mei with people... It's fun lar at first, but now you see... Damn susah.. Oh, and my blog entries for July damn sikit... WTF!! This shows that I have no time at all!! And I still have alot of sampat pictures to post... Haizz... Wish me luck k guys... Princess Signing Off... May 07 公主的王子和恶魔男人不坏， 女人不爱。。。
通常话都是这样说的， 可是如果到最后。。
如果王子和恶魔都爱上公主了， 那该怎么办？？
而公主也对两个都有兴趣。。。
啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊！！！！！！！！ 好烦哦哦哦哦哦哦！！！
Haih, 头痛又来了。。
王子， 好可爱。。 又体贴。。 分明就是个好男人。。
恶魔， 超霸道！！ 不理会别人的感受。。 可是，坏坏底的样子里藏着一个可爱又傻傻的小孩子。。
你叫公主做个选择， 也是未必太难了吧。。。
*叹气*
公主和王子， 应该可以说是天生一对的。。
公主和恶魔， 是一种可以说是被禁的爱情。。
到底，公主应该选谁呢？？
*唉声叹气*
谁可以帮忙救救公主啊啊啊啊啊啊啊！！！
好痛苦哦。。 May 03 Virgin Snow-첫눈 (初雪の恋)Well, I’ve been watching Virgin Snow (初雪の恋) and it was AWESOME!! Acted by Korea’s Lee Jun-Ki as Kim-Min and Japan’s Aoi Miyazaki as Nanae. It is a romance type drama and I’m telling you, it rocks… Especially at the ending, where it got me crying. It also has the CUTEST little romantic quotes but too bad I can’t remember some of them.. Basically it’s about a boy, who grew up in Seoul and moved to Japan because of his father, who is a potter. Min then went exploring Japan and stumbled upon a little temple. Well, before that he fell off his bike and hurt himself. That was where he met Nanae, who helped him cleaned his wound… Min fell in love instantly.. But due to the language gap, it was kinda funny watching both of them struggling to communicate with each other.. Min then enrolled himself into school to learn Japanese and then had an encounter with Nanae once again. Then after trying to pursue her with many of his CUTE ways, they both finally got together. One day, both of them went into a pottery shop and Nanae seemed to like them… They saw one kind that requires different skills from 2 different people, A potter and A painter. Min then promised Nanae he would make one, and then Nanae would paint on it.. (ISN’T IT ADORABLE!!).. So Min went home and begged his dad to teach him all about pottery, which then his dad replied ‘didn’t you say you weren’t touching poop?’ LoL… Anyway, you really just have to watch it!! Of course this movie has its ups and downs, such as Nanae’s dark secrets and her disappearing for awhile and stuff… But eventually, the ending was ABSOLUTELY WONDERFUL and it was really really touching… So SERIOUSLY, GO WATCH IT!! Oh, and did I mention I have another new blog?? http://princesswhatever90.blogspot.com/ Remember to visit often!! Ciao... April 29 Raphael, Michelangelo and LeonardoOk, I was on the phone with YUnxi and asking her about computer studies stuff...( I have an exam tomorrow and I'm doing this... BUt anyway..) Then I was looking at my babies, when I felt a strong rush of LOVE towards them!! (LoL, eww...) They were SOOOOOOOOOO ADORABLE, KAWAII, CUTE or whatever you call them... THen after I hung up, I took my phone and cam-ed them.. They were POSING!! (I think it was my imagination but..) WAHHH~~~ They were so CUTE!!!!!!!!!!! Do you know how hard s it for me to takethose pictures.. They had me crouching in all positions, and it really is H A R D!! BUt finally, I got it... And I am TEMPTED to blog this out.. (I really am supposed to study..) And I alerted Karen!! And she haha-ed.. Not much of an answer but.. KAREN, I LOVE YOU!!! WE MUST ONLINE TOGETHER and don't study!! I'll go Online shopping and you go watch your global warming!!! YAY!!! April 03 Journal Entry for Sky's assignment..Journal Entry
Well, a journal is typically something you could write random stuff into. So I’ll write about my crazy friends in class which are a crazy bunch of people.
First off we have Komala, or as we call her Mala who is the only Indian girl in our class. A very kind-hearted girl, but also can be a very crazy person because of Karen’s influence. (Sorry Mala, but I still love you!!)
Karen, Karen… A very quiet and mature girl on the first impression, but if you get to know her later, only two words can describe her. CRAZY and WILD!! Also known as the girl who bites naughty people in our class. (But without her, our class would be plain boring, so I love you Karen!!)
YunXi or better known as Ah Hee or Pontianak in our class. A very friendly girl and my first friend in Kojadi. In my opinion she could be described as FUNKY, with all her cool clothes and styles. In fact, she taught me many stuff about skin products and cosmetics. And you should really hear her laugh, UNFORGETTABLE! (But I love you too!!)
Next we have the eldest in our class, Ken. He is the other person who I’ll put in the quiet and mature category. But actually he is worst than Karen! (Sorry Ken...) After knowing him for 2 weeks, he finally showed his true colours. He also can be a very good tutor and therefore will always be our very caring big brother, or uncle. (Love you Ken!!)
KokYin… Hmm, the one who came the latest in our class and the one who looks like an insurance seller when in formal wear. He is also known as our other brother in class and is also the founder of the 8 stick concept. Can be very lame at times and likes to sing songs in class. Either way, he will also always be our lovable brother in class. (Love you KokYin!!)
Whoa, now it’s just down to Eric. One look at him and you’ll know that he’s a computer wiz, the next Bill Gates, but maybe even better and dreams of owning LowYat one day. (Good Luck Eric!) He is also the MOST annoying and irritating guy in our class. Because of this, sounds of Karen and Eric fighting can be always heard throughout our class. (Then again, without him, class would be boring too… So, love you Eric!!)
March 29 ~Love~, something we can never forgetLove, I really don't understand it.. It makes both boys and girls confused, as in VERY confused..
So, I'm currently addicted to Sara Bareilles-Love Song and Taylor Swift's Teardrops on My Guitar... I think they're really meaningful, especially teardrops on my guitar.. I understand the feeling when you like someone, but you can't say it out loud.. It really really HURTS!! With a capital H..
Not only that, I've tried it once... I told a boy I liked him, but too bad, he did not like me, and he avoided me... So, I really don't know whether to tell or don't.. Actually, I think it's best for the guys to open their mouth first... But then, it hurts to wait...
Again, when the guy you like has another girl in mind.. You would do all you can to help, because he's your 'heng dai'.. I don't know why, it's just my nature.. I know when to back out, so that I would not get hurt... So you see, I'm the kind of girl who won't do stuff that could hurt me twice..
Also, I think guys are VERY slow... Too slow that in fact, you'll loose that feeling you have towards him... It grows out, seriously.. NOt only me, but some of my other friends have kena-ed before... It really is tiring waiting for your prince charming, sometimes I really feel like riding on the horse myself and just ride away... Until I find another one on another horse...
Then again, its also because of this, I can't really focus on a guy I really like.. Almost everybody I know has someone on their mind, but me.. I change like everytime I see a new guy.. So, that's why I'm still alone...
But, WHO CARES!!! I have ALOT of lovely FRIENDS, and that's what matters most to me now...
Love ya'll!! MUAXXX!!!
March 23 A story I think I'm gonna write..Ok, here's the deal. I'm coming up with a story, thanks to Karen... Because I wanted to watch this chinese drama called 公主小妹.. Then Karen came up with an idea and characters for all of us. So I went back, and did a little list, LoL.. So here's what I came up with..
Princess - Me, lol...
Princess's Brothers, as in Prince - Yinyin and QQ
King - 天天, oops sorry, it's 天哥..
Queen - MeiTeng, wahaha... Queen Josephine...
Advisor - EngFu, because he's always with his computer...
Witch - Karen (she insisted..)
Erm, I still do not have a part for YunXi, KAREN HELP!!!!
Servant - Eric, LOL!!!
Prince - Erm.. Not yet...
Magician - Kelvin
Enchantress - Komala...
Oh, and I even have names... Lol...
Princess Danielle
Prince Javier and Ken
King Sky, LoL... no la...
Queen Josephine
Advisor Yee
Sorceress Karen
Erm... Servant.. LoL
???
Sir Calvin Klein...LoL
Lady Kala...
Anyway, will update after I finish the story... LoL..
February 16 Look, and think before you leap..
To anybody who cares,
This may be the last letter I’m writing, so I better make it quick. First of all to mum and dad. After I die, I hope both of you will be happy without me. Since I’m always a disappointment to both of you. To my lil’ sis, you can have the room all to yourself and won’t have to fight with me anymore. Isn’t that nice? Anyway, I got to go. I hope I’ll see you guys again in the afterlife. Send my regards to all my friends ok? Thank you.
Yours truly, Chloe
After sealing the envelope, tears streamed down Chloe’s face. She was ready, ready to commit suicide by throwing herself in front of a passing car. Her life sucks, her studies suck, her parents don’t care about her and worst of all, her boyfriend just dumped her. What could be more devastating than that? Well, a lot of things. But Chloe didn’t know that, she was just a sixteen-year old anyway.
She closed the wooden door silently, afraid of waking anyone up and walked out into the night. Every step Chloe took, she tried not to think of her family, not to think of the wonderful times she spent with them. Half of her wanted to turn back, but she ignored it. “Bummer!” cursed Chloe. “It’s so cold. And the main road is just a few steps away from home.” Just after saying that, she reached her destination… or her death. Not many cars passed by in the middle of the night. But Chloe was waiting, waiting for the right moment to end her life.
Suddenly, some of her memories flashed in front of her eyes. Times when she and her friends went to her first school trip, times when her parents gave Chloe her first computer, when she and her sister enjoyed giggling at boys…
Chloe slumped to the side and supported herself on a tree. Every beat of her heart was painful and once again, Chloe cried. She cried because of her foolishness, she cried because of disappointing her parents, she cried because of her friends and loved ones. “What would they think of me!” sobbed Chloe. “I seriously cannot do this! I better get back home and tear that blasted letter in half so that nobody finds it.”
When she got back home, her parents and sister were reading the letter. They were horrified at first, and then started crying and hugging each other. “What were you thinking!” asked her dad after an awkward silence. “Do you know how worried we were? Coming down and finding this letter on the table. We thought we were too late to do anything!” “Sorry dad, it’s just… it’s just that…” stammered Chloe. “Hush, Chloe!” said her mum wiping the tears from her eyes. “You don’t need to explain anything. It’s our fault that you got this into your head. It’s our fault that we didn’t pay more attention to this family. From now on, your dad and I will spend most of our time at home. If… you promise NOT to do that again! Am I understood?” “Yes mother...” ‘Now, I think we should have an early breakfast. Anyone want their eggs sunny-side up?”
And for the first time, Chloe was happy that she had a family and a home. From then on, Chloe changed into a different person. Many things happened to her since that day. She passed her exams with flying colours; she was elected as head prefect, became the homecoming queen and is popular among her friends.
This story shows that, we can make a difference in life if we think positive. And also look… and think before you leap.
~A Story by Denise~ ~Copyrighted~ February 13 New Japanese Restaurant in WismaWah, today after college all of us (the girls, no boys. Cause they're too lazy to come.. Bluek) went to this new japanese restaurant. We of course sat at the japanese table and makan. Karen and Mala at first refused, then xiao mei mei say like that got nicer FEEL.. Then when we sat down, we take picture first, not order food.. Sampat like hell.. Mala also have to take with us, wahahaha!!! oh, and actually a waitress there is also a japanese, Cool huh! Of course, I took pictures with her too.. Then we makan-ed, and YunXi again laugh like pontianak, and then me, Mala, Xiao Meimei and Karen also kena jangkit.. After makan, then we pay.. Wah I tell you, that Karen and YunXi ar... Haiz, cannot explain in words, must wait for Xiao Meimei's video clip. Then I can post it online for you all.. Anyway, now waiting for Xiao Meimei's video clip and Karen's photos!! Faster online la you all!!! February 12 DinnerYesterday:
Ok, went to dinner with my cousin's (from my mom's side). They have the CUTEST little dishes, like the rabbits adn stuff..
Today:
Bro's birthday today!! Happy Birthday ABOY!!! And also, sorry for the things I've done in class today, heehee.. Kinda tired.. OMG, and pls AVOID taking buses during the after work hours, it KILLS to stand with 2 heavy books and to be cramped like sardines.. Like, TIRED much!! February 09 Chinese New YearOkay... My first blog entry for my new account, not bad! Anyway, Happy belated Chinese New Year!!! LoL..
First New Year's Day:
Ate团圆饭by opurselves, DUH!! And dad came back, WHEEE!!!
Second New Years Day:
Well, my cousins from my father's side came over and celebrated with us. We ate those New Year stuff, like Fatt Choy and stuff. And we also ate the Yee Sang. Along brought Sofiah over, and she's SOOOOOOOOOO CUTE!!! I took a few pictures of her, and trust me, it really is HARD!!
Third New Years Day:
Went to church early in the morning for Ash Wednesday, whew... It's like a ganti, and we shouldn't eat meat on that day. Went to Shirley's house to拜年. Saw ChunXian, Dong2, SueJean, SueFey, Shirley and Yvonne only.. Haiz, the rest was not there.. Of course, we played Cho Dai Di!! We departed and went to Seremban to see dad's relatives and saw my sis's godfather, Uncle Gary. There was a hot guy there, but then, haiz, I didn't ask for his number.. Was interested in Mahjong and really wanted to learn how to play!! OMG, next we went to a shop house.. Typical old school man!! Alot of antiques and erm, I'm kinda afraid of the toilet.. It's so EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.... Sorry, heehee..Later we went for Kajang satay, yum!! Then when we were halfway eating, we forgot that we weren't supposed to eat meat on that day.. Damn shit!! But nevermind, since it was Kajang satay, LoL!! Then again, we went to see Uncle Douglas and Nicholas Gong2.. I tell you, their house, is twice the size as mine. Even their TV, OMFG!!! Humungous!! Of course, not forgetting their dog Jip, a very old Dalmation.. Poor thing, always shivering..
Fourth New Years Day:
Went to MId Valley!! Yay!! Got my Sketches and also my Miss Whatever chain. I also got a new watch at Toys R' Us.. DO NOT LAUGH!! It happens to be a very nice and pink one. Oh, and we also went to The Gardens. Nothing there actually, kind of bored.. Anyhow, I'm at home now, and Gillian, Jacky and Ivan are visiting. They brought Bushy too!!!!!! I ABSOLUTELY ADORE HIM!!!! Oh, have to go now.. To entertain the visitors and stuff..
Toodles!! MUAXX!!!
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